Forgotten.

So many things going thru my mind. But I don't know how to write them out. & this sucks because I can't even rant and feel better afterwards.

Brudder and I were lying on our beds and talking about life. It's been 6 years since we last did that (talk till one of us falls asleep) & I realised that he grew up. :') But as usual, he said he hopes that I can quickly find a bf and stop bothering him. This boy here likes to remind me that I'm #foreveralone and worse, getting used to it.

Okay, I know that it's my problem that I'm in this state now. So fierce, so unfriendly and so mean. Nobody would want to talk or know a person like me right? Trying to change but the fierce and especially the unfriendly part is really hard. If only I spoke softer and use milder words. & I tend to shield myself from strangers.

Haiya, I shouldn't think too much. Not like anything will change. Shall start acting more like a girl. The rest I'll leave it to fate.